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Rob Chapman's Music
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[Lyrics]
It eats away at me
To let the two of you depend on me
It's more than I can take
With both of you leaning on my foundation
I'm ripped in two
By the force on each side
And I can not repair
No I can't make it right
Because I feel like this is a double life
And it's wrong
'Cause I'm only supposed to have one
Stuck in a tide that is washing away
Any semblance of me that has hid in the stains
And I've grown tired of you
Jumping down my throat
Because you cannot fix your own mistakes
By yourself
I'm so angry, nothing matters
Let you use me, feelings gather
I don't hate you, I don't hate them
But I hate this shit you're imposing on me
Pushing and pulling
You've got me strung out
Yet I console you
Even though you've got me crucified
Hung up high
Looking down on the world
They still look down on me,
How the hell does that work?
Emancipated from humanity,
This rage makes me burn
And this guilt bounds my feet
Push me down
I will struggle for ground
That I can not regain,
Even though I have found
That the truth is disguised
As a blessing, in pain
Well the truth can just bite me,
I'd rather be vain
Can't deal with this shit any more
So I say
Just give me breathing room,
Just give me my own space
I'm so angry, nothing matters
Let you use me, feelings gather
I don't hate you, I don't hate them
But I hate this shit you're imposing on me
I'm so angry, nothing matters
Let you use me, feelings gather
I don't hate you, I don't hate them
But I hate this shit you're imposing on me
I'm so angry, nothing matters
Let you use me, feelings gather
I don't hate you, I don't hate them
But I hate this shit you're imposing on me
On me
About This Song:
I don't think I'll ever forget the monumental shift in my life that occurred because of this song. At it's root, it was just something I wrote out of frustration because two of my good friends were having a month-long spat, and both were constantly feeding me their negative opinions of the other.
The reason this song is so important to me is because of what I did with it. I guess it was my first instance of Networking. Back in the... not early, but young days of Facebook, I was in contact with an awesome guy named Robb Nash who was working with MADD and in a kickass band called Live on Arrival. He's still touring schools of his own accord and making great music.
Anyway, I had actually gotten replies from him on Facebook before about his job, so I sent him this for the hell of it, and to my surprise, he actually listened to it and gave me feedback! He's the one who first implanted the suggestion of possibly becoming a producer due to my style of making music, using loops and such of the time, but still making good songs without being able to play anything (good for a lowly teenager anyway xD). It's years later that the idea came back to me and piqued my interest far more than it did when I was young.
Thank you, Robb Nash. It was that first suggestion that started everything in regards to where I'm going now. Taking Recording Arts in college and studying in hopes of becoming a mix engineer. Thank you.