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About This Song:
This song is about someone who disappeared from my life several years ago (the same person that Never Wanna See You is about) and a subsequent dream that I had about them when I was working on this album, which preyed upon my personal fear of having no closure. I woke up in tears and wrote this song in under an hour from start to finish, barring one lyrical alteration a bit later on. With that in mind, the lyrics say the rest.
Since I wrote it, I've attained said closure, in case anyone was wondering. I'm kind of glad that I recorded this song before that time, because I got the emotional presence in the vocals, and also that the issue is resolved, because it means I don't have to dwell on it anymore. As with Dandelion, it's musically very simple and focuses on an organ as the driving rhythm, as I started getting into that sound at the time. Enjoy.
To Whom It May Concern
[Lyrics]
I'm sitting alone, but my thoughts aren't my own
My emotions are starting to show
As I wake from the dream, I think of what I believed
And how much I stuffed down below
And I've come to realize that I've been so selfish
One epiphany can make the old wounds ripe
And I try to escape, but all I can do is dwell
I wish I could just know you're alright
My apathy was one big lie
And all this guilt is eating me alive
And it burns when these tears come out for you
I wish I could know that somewhere, you're okay
I found myself consumed by the bitter taste
And forgot of the feelings of others
You were so kind to me, was only later
That things took a wrong turn, and we self-destruct
I wiped my mind of the warmness, remembering only the pain
And that's not fair to be a burden on your memory,
So here's my apology,
I'm sorry for being so vain / I'm sorry for everything
The way I feel will never die
It doesn't matter how much I fight
But if I have to say good bye
Then I want to know that somewhere, you're alright