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Struggle (Sooner Or Later)
[Lyrics]
I think it's time I had a heart-to-heart
But with whom I don't really know
Never been good at opening up outside of music
But sometimes it builds up in my throat
And I wanna say everything that I'm too scared to admit to
I wanna bury the past and evolve but I can't even speak
I wanna move onto something more and be happy
How do I break through when I've forgotten how to breathe?
Yeah
Fall, until you hit the ground
If nobody's around, does it make a sound?
And what if they are, what happens then?
Sooner or later, it's gotta come out
Sometimes I regret not being able to say the words
I only release when my back's up against the wall
A ladder of untold truths leads to my desired escape
Until the inevitable slip chain reacts to a scary fall
And I wanna say everything that I'm too scared to admit to
I wanna bury the past and evolve but I can't even speak
I wanna move onto something more and be happy
How do I break through when I've forgotten how to breathe?
Yeah
Fall, until you hit the ground
If nobody's around, does it make a sound?
And what if they are, what happens then?
Sooner or later, it's gotta come out
Turn the page and the mood changes
So drastically, subtlety's not my strong suit
Caged today, not to say that tomorrow won't be a change,
But I ain't gonna follow suit
Again, let's pretend that you're me, this'll just take a moment,
Now swallow the bitter taste of lies from the past,
Stabs to the back
Light through the cracks that lingers but stays just out of reach
And no matter how many friends offer to turn on the lights
You just lie through your teeth and pretend you can see,
But your eyes never focus so you go from memory,
Retracing the old scars and how they bleed
Now you open your eyes and it's gone,
But your pride's on the line and it's all that you got
So you're still gonna fight this fight all alone in hopes that
You'll get back home tonight
And I wanna say everything that I'm too scared to admit to
I wanna bury the past and evolve but I can't even speak
I wanna move onto something more and be happy
How do I break through when I've forgotten how to breathe?
Yeah
Fall, until you hit the ground
If nobody's around, does it make a sound?
And what if they are, what happens then?
Sooner or later, it's gotta come out
Struggle is about my difficulty with opening up to people about things that are going on in my head and in my life. It has to do with the difficulty in keeping aspects of my personal life to myself when they begin to bother me, or something comes from them, whether good or bad, and I find I can't talk about the trouble I find myself in, because I never told them about my situation to begin with.
Eventually, these secrets that we keep come out in some way or another, whether you choose to tell someone, or whether others find out through unavoidable circumstance. Even though it deals with my own personal struggles and secrets, it shouldn't be interpreted as a negative song. The upbeat rhythm of the song is meant to be an indication that, sometimes, admitting the truth about yourself is the best thing that you can do, even if it's in a small way.
Lyrically, this keeps with the Linkin Park influence that is present throughout of Music, but opts for a different sound by employing heavy, almost chiptune-esque synthesizer sounds and over-pronounced electronic drums. Enjoy!