My Music & Works
Rob Chapman's Music
So Sorry
[Lyrics]
I'm so sorry, I failed you again
And I know I should be more forgiving to myself
For all the mistakes that I've made
The nights I've spent in vain
Wondering how could you love me?
And I hold my heart in my hands
Etch your name in the cracks
And know it's all I could ever ask for
I'm so sorry
I'm so sorry
I know that you disapprove when I'm so negative
But there are days that I just need to let it out
I never meant for it to be upsetting to you,
Again I need you here to help me
When I'm stumbling, careening out of control
And crashing head on into
Destiny manifesting in your arms
I need some time to come to grips
'Cause lately I've been out of it
Suffering from dellusions
Of a watered down existence
I'm so sorry, I'm not okay
I'm so sorry, but you know that anyway
It's hard for me to find the words
That I can use when I am like this
Suffering from acute confusion
And insecurities that swallow me whole
It's not like I want this for either of the two of us
But there are days
I want to hide
To disappear
And fall inside
I'm so sorry
So sorry
Sorry
About This Song:
I had severe depression when in high school, partly brought on by the people I was friends with. Not because of them, but because we were more or less the school's band of misfits. All of us had our problems, and when we came together, we brought them all to the table, on top of teen angst. I still have problems with depression from time to time, they're never as bad as they were back then, or as long-lasting. I was also kinda antagonistic at the time, in a passive-aggresive way. This was an apology to anyone who had to put up with that crap from me. I'm glad to have matured past that for the most part.
I'm actually fond of this song because of the reverb effect I have on the vocals, and it being the first time I multi-tracked vocals in different octaves, which is something I do a lot more now.