About This Song:
Fountain
[Lyrics]
I feel like I shouldn't be writing this
I feel let down in a way I can't describe
I question whether or not my hostility was deserved
Or if it was misplaced, might there be a better way?
A downpour of directionless anger seems inappropriate
Maybe it's better to exemplify
I'm sure you think that you'd admit to wrongdoings,
In a heartbeat, but you can't when they fall beneath a blind eye
A living fountain of the arrogance of youth
Unintentional, perhaps, but surely there
Letting the past mistakes of others
Influence your way of thinking
Uneccessary judgments down to splitting hairs
Slowly devolving you
Toward the things that once drew resentment
And it bothers me because you've helped me so many times
You've shown me things,
That helped me through some of my worst
But lately your decisions cause me a lot of inner strife
All of us have had our moments
We've made our mistakes, we can't always get it right
But out of all of us, even those who had struggled the most
I never thought you'd be the one that didn't grow up
Way back then your maturity was well respected
You had your moments, but, for the most part,
It seemed you were the most adult of all of us
Were you fighting a war we didn't know at the time?
Because it seems like now you're on the verge of losing one
Those moments have increased in their frequency
Bitterness seeps through the cracks with regularity
Did I miss something, or did you just stop caring?
And now it's tearing me up, this immaturity
It's like you've become somebody else
I haven't seen you in awhile, so maybe I'm mistaken
I'm trying hard to throw you a line
All of us have had our moments
We've made our mistakes, we can't always get it right
But out of all of us, even those who had struggled the most
I never thought you'd be the one that didn't grow up
Fountain was a letter to a friend that was behaving very differently from the person I knew. I found out third-hand about an incident that occurred behind another friend's back that left them very upset and it spawned a few songs. The one that didn't make the cut was Antonym (basically a needless, angry rant, I felt clashed with the style of the rest of the album). This is a reflection, looking for better ways to handle the situation. Like To Whom It May Concern, another "letter" on the album, the issue has been resolved positively, and I'm glad, because the person the song is about is one of my best friends and I didn't want it to be a persistent problem.
Musically, I'm very happy with the way that it turned out. It draws inspiration from the musical works of 2 The Ranting Gryphon, and I'm fond of the synth solo at the end. I feel that the low, monotone, heavily processed vocals compliment the style of the song and make it more memorable.